I had a very productive day yesterday. (I am sure in part to my online moratorium!) The thing really is that the Internet itself is not a problem, nor are blogs and so on. As always, the problem lies with one's relationship to their use--in one's skillful (or lack thereof) application of means relative to it. So the great thing about blogs and email is how they keep us connected quickly, easily and so on. This is a great and lovely thing. (That yes, Ari enabled!)
The application of skillful means really boils down to the dance of yes and no, doesn't it? (Which is a question we recently had to answer for our study group with Carlos Pomeda- How do you participate in the world of manifestation without getting pulled into sensual indulgence?) Well the thing is we say YES to it all. We say, yes to the blog, yes to the email, yes to text messages, yes to yummy food, yes to any possibility. We welcome it all as an agent of the Divine and as a potential doorway into chit-ananda. And then with discernment, self-scrutiny and rigorous self-honesty we begin the process of no. "No, this makes me crazy," "No, not today," "No, not right now," "No, not so much," "No because I feel bad when I do," "No because I deserve a higher expression" and so on. The small no's can serve the larger Yes.
We do not need to say "no" because anything is inherently wrong or bad or because of some externally imposed moralistic code of renunciation designed to make us suffer and go without but because certain things, behaviors, beliefs, etc. do not help us touch (chit) and express (ananda) our innate majesty. Really, whose essential nature is best brought to life by addictive, indulgent use of anything? It is really quite simple. Well, in theory. As we all know actually making changes and sustaining certain "no's" can be a bit challenging.
Back to my day yesterday--I did very strong asana practice in the morning, worked on my book project and my visual aid project in the afternoon, finished my homework for last session on Tantra with Carlos Pomeda and did some preparation for our upcoming meeting tomorrow on Alchemy, Hatha Yoga, and Kundalini. That stuff is really getting juicy and shall I say "just a bit far out there." I love it. Sometimes I wonder how a spoiled neurotic white girl like myself got so fascinated by the occult, mysticism and the exploration of consciousness. (I know, Mom and Dad you have long wondered the same thing, haven't you? "Who is this child? We raised her to be a good Methodist..." Laughing...) Anyway, the info on alchemy is captivating. More on that later.
That is about it. Off to walk the dogs.